Wednesday 21 November 2012

BUSY ME IS BUSY

Finally blogging! It's been really long since my last post, and wow. Even I am shocked by the duration I've been away O_O Anyway~ right when I restarted blogging, I clearly remember telling myself that this is just gonna be a space FOR MYSELF, and I'm not blogging for anyone else's entertainment - whatever you call it.

I remember saying that I would do a post on The Jonas Brothers' gig here @ Fort Canning Park but I've been so damn busy after that, getting heart attacks with all my results, calculating my scores and thinking what I can do, and then there was graduation day (where I cried like hell - I don't know why either because I'm not a softie) then busy preparing for HCL O levels - I can totally predict a 'C' coming my way because the paper was so bloody difficult and Chinese..... Ha, it's just not my thing~ On the night of HCL O levels I flew to Japan for my trip (and yes, I also made a mental note to blog about it but heck, I haven't even uploaded the pictures on FaceBook!) this time I went, I reminded myself time and again to take only necessary pictures because the last time I went in June, I snapped away like a nutcase and ended up having to waste so much time deleting the unnecessary pictures I took. Can you believe I even took interest in an ant crawling around? 5 pictures on that.

Anyway!! I'll try my best to upload the pics I took in Japan onto FB and create a little blogpost on it soon? But I doubt so because there are so many things coming up:

1) SMTOWN SG on Nov 23
2) Taiwan Trip from Nov 26 - Dec 5
3) SHINee's second solo concert on Dec 8

UGHHH LOOK! My life is too busy, but I really hope to get some motivation before I fly to Taiwan otherwise... My inspirations will all be lost by the time I come back - like how my JB feels have all vanished now LOL.

Also, there's this little thing in my heart which I feel really uncomfortable about. Something I can't speak to my friends about because they might just find me slutty, desperate and well, attention-seeking. Has anyone ever experienced times where boys flirt with you/ ask you out just because of how you look? I'm not saying I'm popular and I don't think I'm pretty in a sense where guys flock all around for me, but this is not the first time something like that has happened so I'm "disturbed" so to speak. I personally don't treat dating as a game, so I don't like it when people do. And the worst part is, I'm just like a piece in their game. Using me whenever they need me and then chucking me off after they're done. What the fuck? LOL that's why girls, we always MUST MUST MUST look carefully before choosing a boyfriend. I've never had one, because I don't have that sense of security with boys around, so yeah. Just ranting - as usual - and I'm done for the day.

Adios!